oct 28

yesterday i've did a stuff tat can able to make me proud....
proud for awile la....
me and brandon fix a door....
but not the normal door but the mirror door....
such heavy....
lucky tat tis 2 weeks got gym and train abit muscle...
still ok oni tis kind of weight..........
today........
argh........
no mood again........
cos of need go to skul and face somebody tat's tired to face them........
dun know y........
tis sem start i've lazy to care or bother about them....
everytime go to skul also got tis feelings....
but then i still pretend like nothing hapen at all........
juz keep silent.........
felt no energy to bother about them anymore....
juz sometime really got some stuff oni i'll bother them.....
new sem start.....
a brand new mask being wearing when facing them.....
kind of be used to tis kind of feelings....
always wearing mask in every skul life.....
juz wearing a brand new mask now oni......
true fren....
at skul life haven really being found out a 100% true fren....
sometimes felt tired when facing them.....
bac to house still need to pretend i'm ntg at all....
maybe juz got my sis can heard my skull stuff.....
luckily i've a sis.....
my mom juz know how to scold me wit vulger words oni....
i know sometimes she's are using tat kind of way to remind me....
but.........
really tired of masked life....
tis week almost everyday drink beer and try to hocus myself....
maybe sometimes life needed something to hocus ourself....